I should not be up this late, school starts early tomorrow.
Nonetheless, here I am.
New room, new semester, new me (kinda).
Although the feeling has already somewhat subsided from earlier this morning, I was feeling extremely sad to leave my family and my home. I know the "norm" is supposedly to be so pumped to get back to school. And I was excited to see all my friends. But it's hard when some of the most important people in my life aren't here.
Today in my youth group from home, Doug (my youth minister) talked about waiting in obedience for God to move in your life.
That. Is. So. Hard.
But that's what I'm doing right now... or trying to do.
I know that God sent me here for a reason. I know that HE has a purpose for me and the people around me at OC. So I am going to obediently wait for Him to uphold His end of the promise, while I uphold mine.
I am kind of at a crossroads right now, where I feel like I could take any step and it could drastically change the entire course of my life. I'm too ambitious, and I want it all at once. I want to dive in, headfirst, but I don't know where jump from.
So, I am choosing to surrender my future.
This isn't my idea... I took it from Doug, because when he was talking about it, it sounded like something I should try. I don't know what's ahead. So why worry about it?
"God can do anything, you know - far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams!" - Ephesians 3:20
Thanks to Kathryne Channell for reminding me of this when I needed to hear it.
I hope you imaginary readers need it, too.
-HallieMarie
Hallie-
ReplyDeleteGod knows you are at a crossroad right now and don't you know that He had you in Doug's class on purpose. Obedience is something learned and not easy for anyone. Maybe that's your lesson for right now and then when it's mastered you'll move on to another lesson. God does absolutely have a plan for you. I love and miss you!
I resent the fact that I am still an imaginary reader. I think I am very real...i think. I know exactly how you feel. I feel like God has something huge for my life but i'm not sure what. I think I could jump in a bunch of different directions but I'm not sure which one I will be most effective in doing. All that to say, You're in my prayers as you continue to seek out and wait for God's will in your life.
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